As Jord's graduation approaches, I know I am blessed to have this ornery kid as mine. To have him still here! I love that kid! Even though he has been pulling my last nerve sometimes. It's been a hard time lately. I have been in denial about the impending empty nest. I am NOT going to think about it until the end of July. It's been hard to deal with the fact that Dr. Ghosh was fired! I am outraged and incensed and all over furious! I hope he stays here in CR. My hope is that he can continue to be Jord's Doctor, as well as ours. How can we ever thank him for curing Jordan of the C BEAST?! Never. Now way. Just our eternal thanks.
As usual for me I am right on course for my grief! One year almost from the day. Like that when he was born so early too. This time I can admit that I was putting things off until now. My insides SCREAM with pain when I think that cancer was in Jordan. It is so intense that it takes my breath away! So I handle little dabs of it at a time and carry on. I heard Marie Osmond say that God gives you respites but you never forget. I honestly believe that. God, Thank You for the Repites!
I carry on today and count my Blessing!
Lord Thank you for all you've given me!
Amen!
