Yay! Jord's 6 mo appt. follow up was good!! Blood tests good! Chest X-rays good! CT good! As we were checking out R brought a young man for us to meet. He is going to ISU and has had testicular cancer. I had met his mom and know his aunt. His mother had called me after the diagnosis and explained her story. Shes been a great support system!
I am relieved for now. This will change as my demons and grief waves attack!
As always....CANCER SUCKS!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Number 1
Here we go! Thanks Nicki for suggesting I blog. Something for my sanity!
Today is Jordan's 6 month check up with the oncologist. As the time rolls nearer, the more nervous I get. And I KNOW that things will be okay. But what if they aren't?! I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. How can anyone survive this? I know there are people who actually lose their kids to cancer or accidents or whatever. How do they survive? I'm not sure. All I know is that I am NOT over this. I am in extreme pain at times. It washes over you like a Tsunami! Then goes back out. I hold my breath waiting for the next wave. How could God have let us down like this? Then again, why not us? We are strong enough. Or am I?
Dear God,
I pray for my sanity. I pray that I have the strength to deal with whatever gets thrown at me. I pray that the next wave doesn't last long. I pray for the cancer to be gone. I pray for my son's returned innocence. I pray for the parents out there that have lost a child or more. I pray for parents whom are waiting on news of their child. I pray for peace.
Amen.
Today is Jordan's 6 month check up with the oncologist. As the time rolls nearer, the more nervous I get. And I KNOW that things will be okay. But what if they aren't?! I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. How can anyone survive this? I know there are people who actually lose their kids to cancer or accidents or whatever. How do they survive? I'm not sure. All I know is that I am NOT over this. I am in extreme pain at times. It washes over you like a Tsunami! Then goes back out. I hold my breath waiting for the next wave. How could God have let us down like this? Then again, why not us? We are strong enough. Or am I?
Dear God,
I pray for my sanity. I pray that I have the strength to deal with whatever gets thrown at me. I pray that the next wave doesn't last long. I pray for the cancer to be gone. I pray for my son's returned innocence. I pray for the parents out there that have lost a child or more. I pray for parents whom are waiting on news of their child. I pray for peace.
Amen.
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