Here we go! Thanks Nicki for suggesting I blog. Something for my sanity!
Today is Jordan's 6 month check up with the oncologist. As the time rolls nearer, the more nervous I get. And I KNOW that things will be okay. But what if they aren't?! I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. How can anyone survive this? I know there are people who actually lose their kids to cancer or accidents or whatever. How do they survive? I'm not sure. All I know is that I am NOT over this. I am in extreme pain at times. It washes over you like a Tsunami! Then goes back out. I hold my breath waiting for the next wave. How could God have let us down like this? Then again, why not us? We are strong enough. Or am I?
Dear God,
I pray for my sanity. I pray that I have the strength to deal with whatever gets thrown at me. I pray that the next wave doesn't last long. I pray for the cancer to be gone. I pray for my son's returned innocence. I pray for the parents out there that have lost a child or more. I pray for parents whom are waiting on news of their child. I pray for peace.
Amen.
I'm praying for health and peace for you all!
ReplyDeleteGreat blog Kim!!! I hope this will be very cathartic for you!
ReplyDeleteSomeone said to me once, and I think I read it too " if you are gonna pray, don't worry, if you are gonna worry, don't pray. They do NOT mix well together." I know it's easier said than done, but it something I have to work on also.
ReplyDeletePhilippians 4:6-7 - "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus."
You know I have already said alot today : ) but know this.. we are all here for you whenever you need us to be. Keep praying Kimmy, as we all will be for you!!